Thanks to everyone that has been praying for Tom and I.
I am starting to believe that God is teaching me perseverance with this all.
Back in July I spoke with a Diabetes Educator about getting Tom onto a pump. Around that time I was chosen by St. Thomas the apostle. I thought right then that St. Thomas choosing me was confirmation that we were heading on the right road with Tom especially when he was named specifically after this St. Thomas. I also thought that because he was praying for me and because I was getting confirmation that this was what God wanted me to do that it would be perfect and I would have no problems with it.
I put God in boxes like this often. I say to him well because I am following your will life will be easy and have no problems. This isn't true. I can see now that God is using this situation with Tom to teach me some greater truth. He is teaching me what it means to persevere. Without perseverance we cannot attain Heaven. Without perseverance we are not going to know the right dose of insulin for Tom and be able to have his diabetes managed well. The Diabetes Educator that we saw today told me that within three months we should have a pretty good pattern and know exactly what Tom needs. This takes work from both me and Tom but will have good long term consequences. We need to keep the long term goal in mind not a bad day here and there.
So thanks for all the prayers. I know that it is because of all your prayers that I have been able to persevere through the hard days. There will still be some hard days to come but I know that they will help us get a better picture of what Tom needs.