I see so often that when ever I make a decision in life that is God's will for me that I start to doubt it always at some time. I am so aware that the devil will try to deceive us especially when we are coming closer to God.
When I first started thinking about homeschooling I was reflecting a lot on how doing God's will brings us closer to him. I remember reading the post at Paramedic Girl's blog a story about a soul in hell and thinking about her choices and the eternal consequences they had.
I remember praying at the time that I would always make the right choices and following God's will so that I didn't have to look back on my life and regret wrong decisions. I also had a couple of discussions with Steve about choices we had made in the past and how they had bought us closer to God. Some decisions seemed wrong sometimes but years on from them we can see that they were God's way of bringing us both closer to each other and to him.
I am also very aware that Satan doesn't want us to persue God's will and will always be trying to put doubt in our minds and trying to distract us from doing it. I know that I am guilty of thinking don't worry about going to mass today or you can leave confession until next week. I even have thought a couple of times that you don't want the priest to think you are too extreme.
The story about the soul in hell says that she thought about going to Mass that day and didn't. I made a consious decision when I read it, that I would make more effort to get to daily mass and to imerse myself in all the sacraments.
Anyway I am starting to believe that my doubts yesterday were not from God or God trying to say to me, no you have it wrong. I can look back today and see lots of God-instances when Steve and I first started talking about home schooling showing us that he did want us to persue it.
So thanks for all your prayers. The next month is going to bring a lot of changes about in our family so continued prayers for us all would be apreciated.