I watched this video last night:
It was a bit of a wake up to me.
It started me thinking, what am I prepared to do for the gospel? I realized that I am not really prepared to do very much at all. I feel quite comfortable in my life. I am happy but I also have a lot.
I started thinking about what I have and what would happen if I was forced to give it up? I think my faith is strong enough that if God took everything I held dear away, I would still believe in him. I may feel hurt and like he owes me something and wonder what the heck I had done wrong to deserve this.
Remember when I hurt my finger, I said to Steve, I am so bad at offering sacrifices. that I only offer them when I have too like a sore finger. I don't think God asks us to go around hurting ourselves but I know he wants us to offer things freely, not because circumstances dictate it.
There are many little sacrifices that I can offer. I can spend less time on computer. I can get up earlier and pray each morning. At the beginning of lent, I decided I wanted to cut my computer time back. I was going to spend a maximum of 1 hour a day reading blogs. It wasn't long and that 1 hour turned into 1 hour in the morning and 1 hour at night. Not long after that I started catching up with other blogs at lunch time and not getting off till it was time to get the school children. I just cannot do small. I have to have all or nothing. So I have decided to have nothing. I am going to give up the computer except for checking email in the evenings once the children are in bed.
I hope everyone has a blessed Holy Week and that everyone knows the joy that the Resurrection brings.